No, not for me, at least not in a romantic way. The last two weekends I've been at weddings, which makes me think even more about love. It has been such an incredible joy to see my friends fall in love and grow in their relationships, and get married. I love weddings. This is no secret. I get really excited about dresses and flowers and decorations, but even more exciting is the chance to SEE love. Yes, I mean see. Obviously love is something you feel, but I love it when you can see it. People in love look at each other differently. That's why we all love to look at the groom when the bride is walking down the aisle: we can see his love for her.
Being at these weddings, as great as they were, made me think a lot. They reminded me again of what I want: to love and be loved, to share my life with someone. These things always go through my mind when I'm at weddings, and I guess it was just more on my mind because of everything that's been going on. I am so incredibly happy for the couples I've been celebrating, but it is kinda hard to be celebrating love when I'm trying to fall out of it. I can't lie and say that my heart doesn't hurt, but it's on the mend. I'm learning to let myself be worth more, and that I'm allowed to have expectations and emotions. I'm trying to stay positive and focus on the things i'm learning instead of the hurt. I have so much love in my life, I really don't want to lose sight of all of the other wonderful people in my life.
I'm so sure that you'll find all types and levels of love in your lifetime. You're just way too loveable of a person to not love! I'm excited to see where life takes you, and what you do in your life. Also, we should chat again. It feels like it's been forever since I've talked to you (even though it's only been like 2 weeks).
ReplyDeleteHey, I love you. You're the best :)
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